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Anxious Trail

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Nothing comes close to the tightening feeling of anxiety, especially when you have nothing to do. It feels like your head, the brain, the skull, the surrounding skin, has got a sentience of its own. It considers you not having anything to do with, you having no drive in your brain. It thinks you have no thoughts. You then start to feel like your head is shrinking, and shrinking, as if the head is trying to cover the “empty places” so that in the end, you only get to use the area that the head thinks you have. This is kind of the feeling that I sometimes grapple with every day. Even today, when I don’t have any tasks right now. I am writing this article in an attempt to keep my head filled so that it does not start to tighten. The words above might feel too fashionable and metaphorical to some, but to those who grapple with constant anxiousness about where their life is heading, the same words could be akin to looking in a mirror. Why does it ha...
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An Extraordinary Morning

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As I woke up in the morning, eyes dizzy and back aching, I remembered that I had a workout to begin. Brushing off the sluggishness, I put my legs on the cold ground while being too drowsy to find my slippers. I still hoped to visit the kitchen and get the coffee ready so that the pre-workout hits and I can get started. What I didn't expect was that the next step I would take toward the kitchen would change everything that morning. My foot found no footing, and it went into the dark abyss that should’ve been a floor. Imbalance caused me to fall. Bad news hit me straight while I was terrified. I may not be in the bedroom anymore. The good news was that my eyes were wide open out of panic, and I was not sleepy anymore. But as the gravity of the abyss pulled me and I soiled myself, I was hoping it was all a dream. It wasn’t, at least at that time. The fall continued, but the hope for it to be nothing more than a dream never died. “People wak...
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